2. I’m not excited about Thanksgiving this year. In fact, I’ve been dreading it for over a month now.
3. Everything right now is focused on being thankful and family and cooking with loved ones. I don’t feel thankful, my family feels incomplete, and I can’t imagine cooking on Thanksgiving morning without my dad.
4. My mom and sister will be in Atlanta with family, and we are going to be here at our house with Chris’s family. Truthfully, I’m kind of glad I won’t be with my family (sorry guys…). I think that would be harder somehow. Without anyone being here, I think it might almost feel like everyone is just at my sister’s house, including my dad.
5. For the past month, I’ve gone back and forth about how to make Thanksgiving Day easier. I’ve thought about going to Chris’s mom’s house instead of being here, about cooking my dad’s food, about NOT cooking my dad’s food, about ordering pizza. So far, drinking pumpkin beer and stuffing my face with pecan pie has been the only choice that seems any kind of appealing. And even that doesn’t sound great.
6. Chris finally agreed to do something completely untraditional for Thanksgiving, so we’re going to Universal Studios for the day.
7. At first, I thought that was a great idea, but the closer the holiday gets, the more I think maybe we need an actual Thanksgiving meal. I do love leftovers. More than leftovers, I do have a lot to be thankful for.
8. Maybe that’s what I need to remember. That you can be thankful even when your heart is heavy. That you can be grateful for those around you while mourning those who have gone on. That you can be blessed beyond all you deserve, even when you don’t feel like saying thank you. Maybe hiding in a theme park isn’t so much an answer as it is an excuse.