Happiness and the Rearview Mirror

Ever since Chris started graduate school at Yale, I’ve had this sticker on the back of my car. It’s a simple sticker that says, “Yale University.” At first, it was a badge of honor because I thought it was so cool to actually know someone who went to Yale. After the novelty of the school wore off, I kept it on my car because I was so proud of Chris for what he had accomplished. When he graduated and started working in New York, we kept our connection to Yale…

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Costa Rica Bound!

I get asked a lot about the trip to Costa Rica that Chris and I are taking at the end of March. We were recipients of the “Gift of Happiness,” which is an eight-day stay in Costa Rica at beautiful hotels, doing adventurous activities, in exotic locations. Sounds pretty darn happy to me. But whenever people would ask me about it, I sort of avoided the topic. There were two reasons. First, there was this tiiiiiiiny little problem with my passport. Like, the fact that I didn’t have one. Years…

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Brutally Honest Marriage

I don’t like to be told what to do. (Who does, really?) And if that something that I need to do involves making a change in myself? Well then, whoever is brave enough to tell me to my face had better be wearing a helmet and a sports cup. Just about the only people in the world that I can take direct criticism from are Chris and my sister. Ginny keeps me in check when I’m being stupid or immature. She tells me to get over things, grow up, and…

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How to Procrastinate

I am an excellent procrastinator. Really. I’m exceptional at procrastination. I have the ability to choose when I will procrastinate. I think that’s my key to success. Most people who are procrastinators procrastinate everything. They buy birthday cards to mail the day of the person’s birthday. They stand in line at H&R Block on April 14. They take the trash out at 4:30am on trash day. They procrastinate in every area of their lives. Not me. I’m above all that nonsense. I have the amazing ability to choose only the…

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The Postpartum Me

Last year, I went through a few really rough months as we transitioned from our life in Connecticut to our new life in Florida. During that time, it was actually Chris who first noticed the signs of depression in me and who encouraged me to talk to my doctor, my family, and my minister about how I was feeling. Through talking about it, and even through blogging about it, I started recognizing those signs in myself and really paid attention to what was making me feel so low. For me,…

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Oh, There You Are, Peter…

A little over two months ago, I shared on my blog that I was struggling with depression.  2010 was a rough year for my family and all the pressures and anxieties that come with a big move, unemployment, financial struggles, a home invasion, and an unexpected pregnancy came crashing down around me.  I felt like I was spinning out of control and couldn’t find anything to hold onto to steady myself.  Though I blogged about it in November, that was actually the beginning of the end of my season of…

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Christmas Week, Part One

Well, Christmas has come and gone in the Brown household and it was the best one yet.  We spent Monday through Thursday at my parent’s house and then on Friday we headed down to our house so that Bean could have Christmas morning there.  My sister and her husband, John Michael, came down from Virginia and that might have been the best part of the whole week.  Since moving back to Florida, we’ve had our whole family together more often, but it makes us all miss my sister even more…

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The Hardest, Holiest, Happiest of Holidays

A couple weeks ago, I met with one of the ministers at my church to talk about my depression.  Though I really feel like I’m on my way to pulling myself out of this hole and every day gets better and better, I was still struggling with feeling separate from God during this time.  If you’re not a Christian, then that might be a hard concept to imagine and running off to a minister might seem awfully dramatic.  Shoot, if you ARE a Christian, running off to a minister might…

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Life Changing

If you should know anything about me, know this:  Laundry is my nemesis. Laundry and I do not get along.  I neglect it and in turn it multiplies like rabbits and takes over my entire existence on this earth.  I often ask myself how our laundry situation gets so bad.  I mean, there are two and a half of us.  How could we possibly generate this much laundry?  It just ain’t natural. But I’m coming to realize that most of our laundry isn’t clothing.  It’s all that other stuff.  It’s…

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Girl’s Weekend

So, part of this whole phase I am trying to pull myself out of has been that I have had real trouble getting excited about this pregnancy. I’m really happy about having another baby, but I just can’t seem to get excited about the pregnancy part. I don’t talk too often about it and, if I’m really honest, I try not to think too much about it because it stresses me out. For the past several months, all I could think about whenever the topic of the New Guy came…

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