The Day Before My World Changes

31May

categories Family, Marriage, Marriage Confessions, pregnancy

Dear Michael,

Tomorrow you will be born.  Such a simple sentence and yet its taken me nine whole months to be able to say it.  For nine months, your Daddy and I have been watching you grow inside my belly.  When we first found out we would be your parents, I walked around for months asking if I looked pregnant.  I wanted everyone to know that you were growing inside of me.  And then one day, you just popped right out and my belly was suddenly big – you grew overnight!  For months after that you got bigger and bigger – and so did I!

Sometimes, your Daddy and I would lay on our couch at night waiting for you to kick.  You always kicked a lot right after dinner.  Sometimes you would kick just a little and I’d squeal and put your Daddy’s hand on my belly and make him wait for 20 more minutes until you kicked again.  And then sometimes you kicked and squirmed so much that we could see my belly moving around without having to even put our hands on you.  You would make my belly into all these funny shapes and we would laugh and laugh at you.  Until you’d move up into my rib cage and that’s what I would have to try to move you because I couldn’t breathe!

I remember there was one day when I was sitting in a meeting at work.  I was probably six months pregnant with you.  You were really active that morning for some reason and throughout the meeting, my belly shook and shook.  I kept trying to hold you still so that you didn’t interrupt the meeting, but you didn’t want to sit still.  You wanted to move!  And dance!  And roll around!  I got back to my office after the meeting and just laughed and laughed at what a funny sense of humor you already had.

Everyone loves to rub you.  Complete strangers come up to give your little head a good rub.  Friends and family just want to put their hands on you.  People can’t resist you already!  And, of course, I am the worst offender.  Sometimes when I’m by myself, I sit in a chair and just rub you.  I pretend that you are going to sleep and that I’m helping to relax you.  Your Daddy loves it when I rub his head, and I can already tell that you are just the same because when I start to rub you, you just settle down and sleep – just like your Daddy!

And do you know why I am able to rub your head?  Because you are in the wrong position, silly!  You are supposed to have your head down, but you wanted to sit straight up in my belly.  You’re doing just as I hope you will for the rest of your life – taking it all in.  Checking it all out.  That curiosity is one of the greatest characteristics a person can have.

Tomorrow is your birth day.  You will come into this world and in an instant you will change our lives.  For the past few weeks as this day has come closer and closer, your Daddy and I have stayed up late into the night talking about how excited we are to meet you and how wonderful our lives will be when you are finally here.  But I have to tell you a little secret…  I’m going to miss you being in my belly.  I haven’t really loved being pregnant.  Its hard and strange and exhausting.  Remember that one day when your wife is pregnant with your babies.  But I will miss you being in my belly.  No matter how uncomfortable it might have been at times, I have loved you being a part of me.  I love being alone in my car and feeling your little feet poke me.  I love waking up in the middle of the night because I can feel you hiccuping.  I just like knowing that you are with me.  And I’m going to miss that after tomorrow.

I haven’t even met you yet, Michael, and I know that I would do this all over again 1,000 times a day if it meant I’d get to meet you tomorrow.  That’s how special you are to me.

So on this day before my world changes, I just want you to know how excited I am to meet you tomorrow.  You are already the greatest thing that has ever happened to your Daddy and me.

Until tomorrow,

Mommy

59  comments   |   posted in Family, Marriage, Marriage Confessions, pregnancy   |   tags: life, love, Marriage, pregnancy

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1) Grace: I have been following your blog for some time now...and really enjoy reading it! I am 28 weeks pregnant and cannot wait to be where you are right now:) CONGRATULATIONS! Cannot wait to see pictures of your little one. (05.31.2009 09:10am)

2) Maureen: aww, this is so sweet! good luck tomorrow! (05.31.2009 09:36am)

3) Nelia: To Michael's Day, salut! (05.31.2009 09:45am)

4) Kelly: Very Sweet! I'm excited for both of you! (05.31.2009 09:59am)

5) Liz: This is a very beautiful letter. I'm so excited for a that you get to meet him tomorrow! (05.31.2009 10:20am)

6) Mindee@ourfrontdoor: Have a great day tomorrow. (Well as great a day as you can when you're being gutted like a fish.) C-section babies are the prettiest ones in the nursery. No squished heads or bruises. I can't wait to see the pictures of your beautiful boy. (05.31.2009 11:21am)

7) Ilana J: Tomorrow is going to be great!!!! Congratulations! (05.31.2009 11:58am)

8) Cheryl in Nebraska: I've been following your blog for a few months now and I've never "chimed in" I wish you and your husband all the best tomorrow. Your lives will never be the same.♥ (05.31.2009 12:14pm)

9) Gina: Katie, I have been following your blog a few months before you annouced you were preggo with the bean. I just wanted to say that you really have helped me become a better fiancee to my unfortunate man (lol). I can only hope when I am ready to become a mother that I can follow by the example you set here on your blog. Best of luck tomorrow, I hope everything is painless and smooth. Chris, I know you are going to be fab...no worries.. Micheal...you have no idea how many strangers are anxious to meet you!! Lots of hugs and new baby smells!! -Gina (05.31.2009 01:09pm)

10) eighmey: I just wanted to let you know that this letter was really sweet, it made me cry and helped me remember being pregnant with my son. Best of luck to you and Chris tomorrow. (05.31.2009 02:25pm)

11) Betty: Congratulations a thousand times. I can't wait to see pictures. And I was in TEARS by the end of this. So sweet. (05.31.2009 03:36pm)

12) Andie: I too am a fellow stalker of your blog. You are hilarious and you make me look forward to finally getting married to my bf and experiencing all the fun that marriage is. Congrats on the bean almost being here! Your letter was beautiful:) All the best to you and your little family (05.31.2009 03:39pm)

13) Liesel: Very sweet post, Katie. Almost makes me want to get pregnant myself. Almost. Good luck tomorrow. Can't wait to see pictures. (05.31.2009 03:57pm)

14) Sue V.: Katie and Chris, I have been following your blog for about a month - checked out your blog after reading comments on PW. I am the mother of four (ages 8,7,5,and 3) living in the middle of MN. Your blog makes me smile. This letter is so precious...print it out and put it in the first page of Michael's baby book. Savor that moment that Michael looks into your face for the first time; it is a truly amazing moment. They grow up so fast. He will change your life in such an awesome way - you will do and say things you never could have imagined. I wish you all the best as you meet your little man. (05.31.2009 04:03pm)

15) Kristin: Good luck tomorrow!!! (05.31.2009 04:33pm)

16) Chloe: Congratulations!! and good luck for tomorrow!! I can't wait to see pictures of Michael!!! (05.31.2009 05:07pm)

17) Israel: The best luck for tomorrow! (05.31.2009 05:55pm)

18) Chris Jarrett: Good Luck tomorrow, Katie and Chris! (05.31.2009 05:58pm)

19) Jenn: You'll be great tomorrow! Can't wait to see pictures of your little boy! (05.31.2009 06:13pm)

20) Hilary: “It is God who arms me with strength and makes my way perfect.” (2 Samuel 22:33) - May God give you and Chris supernatural strength and courage and prepare you for Michael's "perfect" delivery! God bless! (05.31.2009 08:37pm)

21) mom of one: Congrats! Enjoy every moment... and let the nurses take him so you can sleep... It only gets better from here.. CONGRATS! can't wait to see him! (05.31.2009 09:19pm)

22) Rachel: Katie, Chris and little Michael, all the best tomorrow. Congrats to the new parents! I can't wait to see the pictures and continue reading your updates. (05.31.2009 10:22pm)

23) Zoe: Brought a tear to my tear, so sweet :) Also, you could feel him hiccuping?! Wow! (06.01.2009 12:03am)

24) Sarah M: I have been reading your blog for some time now, but never commented and this post made me teary so I just had to. I wish you the best for tomorrow and the future! Congratulations, can't wait to read all about your new journey together! (06.01.2009 12:07am)

25) Camille: EEEEEEEE!!!!!!!! I'm so excited for you guys! I hope I'm as good a mom as you already are, when I'm pregnant. You're an inspiration! Good luck!!! (06.01.2009 12:13am)

26) Laura: Katie, i have only been following your blog for a few months, and i so appreciate you letting all of us strangers be even a small part of your life, and i can't wait to finally meet the Bean (i guess we'll have to start calling him Michael from now on!). you, Chris and Michael have all of my prayers and i hope everything goes smoothly tomorrow! Always, Laura (06.01.2009 12:57am)

27) Shannon: Katie, Like many others, I've been following your blog for a while. This post was beautiful and I wish you all the best luck tomorrow! I hope everything goes smoothly and that in a few hours you'll have your beautiful boy in your arms. Congratulations! ~Shannon (06.01.2009 01:20am)

28) Lisa: Katie and Chris, I have been following your blog for a while now and I feel like I know you! I'm so excited for you to meet your son and become parents for the first time! Good luck tomorrow and congratulations! Can't wait to see pictures of your baby boy! (06.01.2009 01:31am)

29) SusanL: Happy Birthday Michael. (06.01.2009 03:00am)

30) Rachel: Thinking of you today - can't wait to see pictures. Congratulations! (06.01.2009 06:21am)

31) kay: oh yes! how your world will change...enjoy the changes! motherhood is the best "hood" in the world to belong to! good luck! http://randommusingsfrommypov.com (06.01.2009 08:32am)

32) Sarah Barker: Thanks for almost making me cry at work! I'm thinking of you, Michael, and Chris today. Love to all of you. :) (06.01.2009 08:44am)

33) Liz, JM, and Leo: Hi Katie, Chris, and MICHAEL! We've been thinking and praying for you all day today (it's been Michael's birthday here for about 20 hours already!) - we're so happy for you and just continuing to pray for a smooth delivery and a joyful first meeting. There's nothing else like it in the world! What a sweet letter! Made me cry! Love you, Liz (06.01.2009 08:52am)

34) Emily C: I woke up thinking that there was something about today that I was suppose to remember and when I got to work I remembered...today is your big day!! Then I read your blog and I cried. That is such a sweet letter to your precious little baby. I said a prayer for you, hoping all goes well and you will soon be holding your beautiful baby. Best of luck! (06.01.2009 09:30am)

35) Jes: Thinking of you guys today. Good luck and best wishes! (06.01.2009 09:52am)

36) Era: Stopped by to wish you all the best!!!!!!! (06.01.2009 10:13am)

37) elizabeth: MONDAY JUNE 1ST--thinking of you and hubby today...HAPPY BIRTH-DAY, BABY!!!.... i bet he is a BIGGUN!?....can hardly wait to see him, and his adoring parents. ♥best wishes from ottawa, canada♥ (06.01.2009 10:46am)

38) Candice: What a beautiful letter to welcome your son into the world! Best wishes for the birth! (06.01.2009 10:48am)

39) Sarah @ BecomingSarah.com: I'm very excited for you, as today's the big day =) Good luck with everything; I hope that you and Michael are spending time together and falling in love with one another before you know it. (06.01.2009 11:03am)

40) Casey: Today is the day! I bet you are loving on him already! This is the sweetest letter to your son. I teared up a couple times. He will love it when he's older. Good luck today! (06.01.2009 11:15am)

41) Christina Rhoades: That was a very sweet letter. Your son will really appreciate that when he is older. I am so excited to see pics of him... (06.01.2009 11:30am)

42) Ally Pereira: U have a great blog, I have been following since 4 months ago:) Congrats on ur bundle of joy, guys! (06.01.2009 01:01pm)

43) Stephanie Hannum: Katie, I love following your blog — Max and I wish you the best today and hope everything goes well! Congrats, Stephanie Hannum (06.01.2009 01:40pm)

44) Jennifer: Everyone needs a good little cry on a Monday morning, precious post. (06.01.2009 02:01pm)

45) Alexandra: Wow. Just beautiful. You have me tearing up at my desk. I hope you, Chris and little Michael are having a wonderful day. Happy Birthday Michael ~ you are already a star to so many. Congrats to all of you. :) (06.01.2009 03:08pm)

46) Megan: Congratulations! Can't wait to "meet" Michael! (06.01.2009 03:33pm)

47) Sarah H.: Michael, I'm getting so excited/anxious waiting for news and pics of your arrival :) Have fun with your loving and humerous parents! (06.01.2009 04:24pm)

48) Sarah Burnett: ah Kate, I love the posting. And, Ginny just sent me pictures - Michael is such a stud @ Day 1! I can't wait till I get to meet him :) Congrats Mom and Dad (06.01.2009 05:13pm)

49) Julia: What a beautiful letter. Happy Birthday Michael! (06.01.2009 06:45pm)

50) Laura: I've been thinking of you all day! I'm praying for lots of sleep, a swift recovery and a healthy baby boy! yay! Congratulations Katie and Chris! (06.01.2009 06:52pm)

51) Libby: OH MY GOSH I'M SO EXCITED! I've been telling my boyfriend for like a week now "Katie's having her baby!" He thinks I'm insane being so excited for an internet-person. Sounds like (from Sarah's comment above) that everything went well. Congratulations! Happy Birthday Michael! (06.01.2009 07:33pm)

52) Emily: What a sweet letter! Thinking about you guys today & hope everyone is resting up and doing well! Can't wait to meet little Michael!!! :o) (06.01.2009 09:35pm)

53) Adrienne: Katie, That was such a beautiful letter. I wish I had done one for each of my kids. There is nothing in the world as amazing as the feeling of a littler person growing inside of you. I don't miss being pregnant, all 3 certainly had some pretty rough spots, but I do miss that feeling. That total closeness/oneness with your baby. Now that they are here, I hold them and tell them I love them as much as I can, and I know someday they will hate it, but I will just have to tell them that I have to because they were a part of me and I helped them grow and a mommy's love is the strongest thing in the world. I hope you enjoy all the moments with Michael. The beginning will be a rough adjustment for all of you, but just remember, the only thing he does know, is that you and Chris love him. Congratulations! If you ever want advice, I am sure you have a million sources, but I always love to share my experiences with other moms. Adrienne (06.01.2009 11:19pm)

54) Blayne: Hi!! I just found your blog this weekend and of course I have read the entire thing start to finish .. that's like super stalkerish right? But HEY it just so happens that being the impatient person that I am, I found your blog just in time for your little bean to arrive!! Your letter was beautiful and I cannot wait to see pictures of him! :) I hope you are doing well. -Blayne (06.01.2009 11:49pm)

55) Blayne: Oh and BTW your blog is probably the most funny and entertaining that I have ever read in my life! (06.01.2009 11:49pm)

56) shionge: This is so sweet and nice Katie :) Michael is very lucky to have you as his Mom, wishing you all the best :D (06.02.2009 02:39am)

57) Great Grandma Barnes (GG): O Happy Day! I am so proud of you and Chris - for lots of reasons - but especially for my great grandson. Your letter to Michael was awesome! Of course I'm crying (but I'm old!) This was the best day of the rest of your lives! I love you all. GG (06.02.2009 08:58am)

58) MAria: We saw your mommy blog and it looks great.... we'd love to get you involved in SAHMAnswers.com. At the least it can send you a ton of traffic... Thanks, Maria (06.02.2009 09:06pm)

59) Jen: I knew I shouldn't have re-read this one on a Monday morning. But now sitting at my desk I'm glad I did. I am getting married in a few weeks and the decision to have or not have another baby is huge. But reading this today I know the answer. "Monday morning desk tears" can help answer the unknown sometimes. Thanks for the sweet post! (05.03.2010 10:32am)

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