First Day of School


Yesterday was Bean’s first day at his new school.  We got up and going early and totally would have been on time if Bean didn’t eat like a snail.  He takes forever to eat anything (just like his Dad…) and so we all sat around, fully dressed, staring at Bean in his high chair until he proudly pronounced, “All done!”

When we got to school, he immediately knew something was up.  He attached himself to my leg and started wimpering, but I just kept talking to him in a sing-songy voice while he helped me unpack his daycare essentials.  It was really different to start daycare this time around than it was when he was a baby.  On his first day of daycare when he was three months old, I was so nervous that I forgot to pack any bottles for him!  This time I was a little more prepared and we took a pack of diapers and a pack of wipes, two extra changes of clothes to keep in his little cubby, three sippy cups (as requested by the daycare), extra binkies, and, of course, Mr. Bear.  This particular daycare provides all food and snacks, so I didn’t have to worry about those.

After we unpacked everything, I talked with his teacher for a minute about Bean’s personality and I told her how to calm him down because I knew he would flip out when I left.  Then after about 10 minutes of chatting while Bean slowly started to venture out into the classroom, I quickly kissed him and told him I loved him and then I scooted out.

And that’s when he started wailing.

I stood out in the hallway where he couldn’t see me and just waited for him to stop crying.  That was more just so that I felt better about leaving, really.  When I heard him get quieter, I peeked in the room and was happy to see that his teacher had done everything I had suggested.  She gave him his binky (which I asked her to only use when he got REALLY worked up and during naptime) and she gave him Mr. Bear (which Bean was clinging on to for dear life) and she walked him over to the window and they were looking at the birds and trees outside (which is one of Bean’s favorite things to do).

I called a couple hours later though and the teacher said that Bean was having a rough day.  He cried most of the time, but he was actually interested whenever they started doing an activity.  He would sit with his teacher and participate, but the minute she either put him down or there was a break in the routine, he would start crying again.

It just broke my heart, but not really because he was upset.  I know that is just part of adjusting to something new and I know this is going to be so good for him so I’m actually okay with him being upset right now.  I hate to see him crying like that, but I know it’s better for the long run.  What breaks my heart is that I know this isn’t Bean’s little personality.  I know what a happy, excited, curious, engaged, fun, silly little boy he is and I want everyone who meets him to know that about him.  So what I hate about this beginning part is that his teachers don’t know that part about him yet.


I’m sure it will get better, but I also know that it’s probably going to get rougher before it gets easier.  The second day is always harder than the first because he knows what’s coming now.  Which is why it is 5am as I write this and why I woke up at 4am thinking about dropping him at school today.  Poor little buddy.

Neither one of us is looking forward to going back today.  But that’s the hardest part about being a mom.  You don’t always get to just do the fun stuff.  Someone has to be the one to say that we have to do things sometimes because they are good for us.  Do you think mom’s like eating their vegetables?  No way!  Do you think mom’s like seeing their kids get shots?  No way!  But mom’s are the heavy hitters sometimes.  It’s just part of our job description.  I think it falls under the “Management” category.

Bean will get the hang of it – and so will I.  But until then, I’m going to drop him off every day with big ol’ smiles and lots of kisses and tell him how proud I am of him, and then I’ll spend the rest of my day worrying.

Because that is also part of our job description.  I think it falls under the category “Things No One Else Wants to Do.”

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30 Thoughts to “First Day of School”

  1. I can’t believe he’s so big already – and such a cutie too (that I can believe)! I’m sure he’ll continue to adjust and it will be a great experience for both of you.

  2. Oh that is sad! But you’re right, it’ll get better. And in my opinion you’re doing it right, happy cheerful goodbyes, not lingering too long, but he’s had you all day for so many months now that it’ll obviously take time to adjust.

    Also, holy cow does Bean look CUTE in those pics!!!

  3. Lee Ann

    He looks SO grown up in these photos! He’s gonna be a great big brother!

  4. Oh my goodness – he just gets cuter every day! I have to say I feel for you. I still have 4.5 months to go in this pregnancy and I’m already dreading dropping my little man off at day care. We are just going to visit the day care tomorrow and I keep hoping I win the lottery or inherit millions so that I can avoid it. Hang in there and I hope it gets smoother for both of you!

  5. Ella

    He does look so grown up! It WILL get better! I hope his day today is a bit better than his 1st day. Each day it will get easier, once it becomes familiar to him. Still finding it hard to believe Bean is going to be a big brother! He will be the best big brother too 🙂

  6. Sarah H.

    He looks absolutely precious in that outfit!!! I hope things get better, but it sounds like you’re doing a great job 🙂

  7. Jess

    I can totally relate…those pics are very cute!

  8. As somebody who works in child care, I know those first few days are hard. But I bet Bean will perk up soon and they’ll all grow to know and love him, just like you do! 🙂

  9. Maryellen

    Katie, I think your child aged over night. I believe he is now 6 years old.

  10. Oh Katie… this mothering gig sure has its difficult moments, doesn’t it?

  11. stephanie

    He is so darn cute it just melts my heart!

  12. Rachel

    Look at Bean Man maturing into a little boy! He’s so precious in the pictures. I’m sure his days will get better at daycare, and I’m sure you’ll still continue to worry…that’s part of being a mommy.

  13. When Connor was in daycare, Daddy dropped him off in the morning and I picked him up. Although this made it easier on me, I still had all the same thoughts and feelings you just described.

  14. I can’t believe he’s so big now! Seems like yesterday we were all going gaga over what a cute baby he was. He’s practically a man now (but still incredibly adorable!)

    I used cry like the world was about to end when I was young too. I’d always cling on to my mom’s leg and scream for her not to go and not to leave me. I would be perfectly fine after a couple of hours, so Bean will be great on his second day.

  15. Great job description Katie and I can tell you from working with older kiddos that the moms who have refused to do the hard stuff (make them eat veggies, enforce rules, set schedules, etc.) pay for it later. And so does everyone else around them!

    So thanks for doing your job so well!

  16. Ashley

    So handsome in those overalls!! AND CONGRATS ON BABY NUMBER 2! I am so happy for you!

  17. Tracy B

    Don’t worry – he’s just at that age where he knows his Mommy is leaving. He’ll quickly realize that his school is a fun and safe place. Both of my boys (now 10 & 6) absolutely loved their daycare – but on occasion they’d just decide they didn’t want to stay! Be loving, but be quick with your exit. He’ll be fine. Can’t wait to hear how he did today…..he’s absolutely adorable!

  18. Allison

    He looks so grown-up in those photos! I’m sorry it was (and will be) a rough beginning. Hang in there.

  19. WHOA! That’s not a baby, that’s a BOY! He’s so big and it seems like it just happened all of a sudden!

  20. Kate

    OMG! he’s so handsome : )

  21. Nicole

    I teach middle school and my daughters preschool is downstairs. She cried everyday all day for the first two weeks and now BEGS to school every morning, even on the weekends! (Uh, no on that weekend business)

  22. Jenna

    Hang in there. The teachers at your daycare are lucky to be working with a mom like you … and with Bean too, of course!

  23. Ashley

    He is PRECIOUS in that outfit! Just precious. It’s got to be hard to know that dropping him off makes him sad, but you really are doing the right thing (as you know). Now he gets to socialize with other kids and learn to spend some time apart from you. Good job being tough even though it’s not easy!

  24. sue

    he loooks adorable<3 it’ll get better!

  25. Tressa

    He looks so much older in that cute outfit!
    Good luck, I hope it gets better quick.

  26. Maren

    Could Bean be any cuter?

  27. Bean man is looking scrumptious in these pics! I remember those days with my daughter. It’ll bet better, I promise! Hang in there Mama!

  28. So cute. So when do we get to see pictures of you on your first day of school this year?

  29. I’m just about to cry myself!!

    Being a mom is the hardest thing I have ever done. Those hard “but it is what’s best” decisions are killer. But…we have to make them…it’s our job.



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